An out take from our House Hunter Audition Video, plus a bit more :-)

Well I can't say a whole lot has been happening as far as anything of real detail around here. Just mostly been doing daily chores towards our move.  I can honestly say this has been a much harder experience that I had originally thought. Don't get me wrong I knew it would be hard, but wow this has been a huge under taking.  I feel like we are like a spider web of very intricate strings of the web that are so woven tight, trying to unwind them is huge task.  Miraculously they are slowly breaking a part and I am starting to see the sun through the thinner layers. We have made such a great life for ourselves here in Toledo (Ottawa Hills) and leaving it is heart breaking.  There has been so many tears from our house hold, I really hope we are making the right decision. Fear of the unknown is painful on so many levels.  I do believe however that we can only grow from change and all the different experiences we have in life really do make us the people that we are.

I always share with my kids the things about my childhood that most kids don't go through, but in the end it did make me the person I am today.  I had so much change in my childhood and I am a little fearful that I tend to change things in my adulthood based on wanting that exciting piece of change.  Normally this has been with a paint color in my house, a change in a job or a new piece of furniture.  Now I am wanting to move it up a huge notch by moving :-(  I do know this is something that both Bradden and I want though and this makes me feel a bit better (that it isn't just me). 

I am mostly scared about leaving our family.  I have lived in Toledo for 35 years, my whole life, never left (well I lived in Columbus for about 4 months when I was 17) and knowing I am leaving what and who I have always known is soooo scary!!!  It seems like so many other people have left though and what I knew as my life 5 to 10 years ago is so very different today.  I have to tell myself that was is today won't always be what tomorrow is, so I have to stop holding on to the past.  Even though it is hard and I have so many amazing memories of what my past was, this is life and it just keeps moving forward. I firmly believe we have COMPLETE control of our life and stuff just doesn't keep happening to people, it is all self made. NOT meaning illness or things that are out of your control, but stuff that holds people back.  Not being able to make sacrifices to help yourself get where you want to be.  Working hard, having goals, staying on track, having realistic goals, enjoying the process (this is Bradden's quote about life) and just going to do it! I am not special, I am not out of the ordinary, I am not an expert, I am just me and I have A WHOLE LOT OF IDEAS!!  I still remember when I was just about 15 years old, my grandmother (who sadly is not with us any longer) picked me up and asked what I had been up to and I said "Hmmm just thinking a lot"!  Who says that, but really I am always thinking.  It has gotten me in a lot of trouble in life, but also has allowed a lot of positive aspects to our life due to my "THINKING"!  

Well it is the weekend and I hope you enjoy it and also all those  Mothers out there, enjoy their Mother's Day!!  Happy Spring!

I did want to share this awesome FB page I follow.  Such amazing advice and I have so many connections to his advice.  A big part of how I believe in living life.  Take a minute to follow him or at least check in time and time again for a little pick me up!   https://www.facebook.com/becomingminimalist

We submitted our House Hunter video this week and this was a little out take from our clips.  Haha, I look awful and I was like I felt like I looked decent in the mirror, but then the video did not agree with me.  Oh well, I have to do something to look better and stop whining about it.